Now that I know I can... I will

God has been so good to me. It hasn't been until recently that I have been able to recognize this. Not because he wasn't good to me before but, because I was not fully surrendering and resting in his presence. Everything use to stipulate on how I would feel. I ignored problems, sank in denial and basically hid from any hint of pain. Now, I really do long for what is good and just and in considering all trials pure joy. I use to be limited by my fear of failure, not being good enough. I knew I was creative but just knowing doesn't create, creating creates. By the grace of God, I have adopted an attitude of even if I suck at it, i'll try. And come to find out, I am not as bad as I led myself to believe. God's perfect timing has left me speechless so much recently. He has put art in my heart. I am finding beauty and meaning in everything I come across. Experiences and revelations of a huge world come alive to me when I think about how endless the beauty of the mind and surroundings are. It's  comparative to a child walking through the gates of Disneyland. All is ahead, I just have to take the steps to enjoy the rides. Join me, wont you? :)